Tuesday, December 07, 2004
I don't know where to begin
Everything is getting very confusing.
And I am so very stressed out!
When I go back to work I will be working late day shift (11am and noon start times) but I still have Friday and Saturday off. It also means I have to start earlier on Sundays ( but I may be able to switch with someone for a later start time on Sundays so I can travel home from Kincardine or Toronto on Sundays instead of Saturday nights... Yet I stress, about having to get up early, falling asleep, getting enough sleep. I can't stand it. The plus is I get to be home every night by 9pm (CSI every night, and I still get to talk to J every night.)
The second opinion psychiatrist appointment is on Thursday and I am very worried as recent events have made me question the medication I am on as well. These side effects get worse with the more stress I am under and I know that when I go back to work they are going to be invasive and difficult to deal with.
And my psychiatrist is on vacation until Monday!
And one of my friends is now fighting for her children as her ex has stolen them. She's called me to help and lend support and it is weighing heavily on my already over burdened self. I feel like I am ready to collapse or implode or break or something equally bizarre.
I know that I am sliding downwards again. The burden of these stresses are over-powering. And it is only because it is all ot once. If I got to deal with them one at a time then I could handle them (I think) but this is getting to be too much. I can't pull my support from my friend, that would be too hard as well - as I would feel as though I had betrayed our friendship. Oh GEEE.... what to do.... this really sucks....
And I am so very stressed out!
When I go back to work I will be working late day shift (11am and noon start times) but I still have Friday and Saturday off. It also means I have to start earlier on Sundays ( but I may be able to switch with someone for a later start time on Sundays so I can travel home from Kincardine or Toronto on Sundays instead of Saturday nights... Yet I stress, about having to get up early, falling asleep, getting enough sleep. I can't stand it. The plus is I get to be home every night by 9pm (CSI every night, and I still get to talk to J every night.)
The second opinion psychiatrist appointment is on Thursday and I am very worried as recent events have made me question the medication I am on as well. These side effects get worse with the more stress I am under and I know that when I go back to work they are going to be invasive and difficult to deal with.
And my psychiatrist is on vacation until Monday!
And one of my friends is now fighting for her children as her ex has stolen them. She's called me to help and lend support and it is weighing heavily on my already over burdened self. I feel like I am ready to collapse or implode or break or something equally bizarre.
I know that I am sliding downwards again. The burden of these stresses are over-powering. And it is only because it is all ot once. If I got to deal with them one at a time then I could handle them (I think) but this is getting to be too much. I can't pull my support from my friend, that would be too hard as well - as I would feel as though I had betrayed our friendship. Oh GEEE.... what to do.... this really sucks....
Dragonfly 12/07/2004 02:28:00 PM