Tales From the Dark Side

I never thought a PS2 would make me cry - but it did.

The sentiment was there - he wanted me to have one of my own to play the game I love so much whenever I want without having to NAG him to borrow his (he bought befoore I decided to move into a house that already has one, and he did not know that FF had offered to lend me her spare unit.)

But to me - it was just one more thing to show that our future together was further apart than I thought. I was not expecting (OR hoping for) a ring. I don't know what I though it might be. But the PS2, as cool as that is (and it is the new slim unit that is very tiny) just filled me with hurt.
I was actually relieved when Tan called me to go upstairs where I could cry freely and she said that she understood. That almost made it worse. Her understanding. It doesn't happen very often.

J and I went for breakfast this morning and wandered around... went into Home Depot to see the entertainment center I love and it was gone - so were all the firelogs I buy...
then i come home and check my e-mail and blog...
And it seems Firefly has misunderstoods my comment (maybe I am the one misunderstanding - who knows) but I feel like I am incapable of doing anything right at the moment. Nothing is going well for me, I am alone on my birthday as J is gone to work - never took the day off, not celebrating Valentines Day (alone again - or I may as well be) and all my friends are abandoning me.

Thank God I am going back to work...
At least I'll have less time in my day.... more stuff to do.