Saturday, April 16, 2005
I feel wrong
I'm living a lie and I hate it.
I know I like him. I may even love him.
But I don't want him here anymore and here he is.
Sleeping in my bed and I don't want to wake him up and tell him the things that I need to say. Usually I can say these things. I have always been very open with my feelings - but to actually tell someone that I don't want to live like this anymore and know how much it will hurt... well it sucks.
I don't want to do it.
But I have to.
I don't think I have the strength.
I know I like him. I may even love him.
But I don't want him here anymore and here he is.
Sleeping in my bed and I don't want to wake him up and tell him the things that I need to say. Usually I can say these things. I have always been very open with my feelings - but to actually tell someone that I don't want to live like this anymore and know how much it will hurt... well it sucks.
I don't want to do it.
But I have to.
I don't think I have the strength.
Dragonfly 4/16/2005 11:06:00 AM