Tales From the Dark Side

I can't believe it's been half a year since I blogged... so very sorry! Writing is supposed to be my muse.. my release. I don't even think I have picked up my journal in months. I think that is what disappoints me the most.

So.. here's the lowdown!

I got reviewed by Canada Revenue service in August. They wanted proof of my rent. Had to get the landlord to sign a note saying that yes.. I live here and yes I pay rent...
Well lfucker got pissed off cause he wasn't claiming the income (not my problem). He freaks out and tells me it's a strict landlord tenant situation from now on... Then comes to me and asks for cash towards cable adn hydro... as if I am gonna fall for that crap!!

So I go to the bank, find out I do qualify for a mortgage, and that it would be better (in my best interest) to wait until I get my VISA's paid off...

but then shit hits the fan.. I am served with Termination of Tenancy papers must be out just after Christmas. Then an EVICTION notice for the same date.
So I find a cute little house, and make an offer. Luckily there is a program here in Ontario to helop first time home buyers. And I am lucky enough to get my down payment from that program.

The landlord has been harrassing me, my life has been hell... and I started behaving in ways that are so against my human nature that I feel shittier than ever. Leaving lights on, emptying the hot water tank, making more noise than i ever have!!!
I am a conserver... water, energy, everything.. an avid recycler and I have been playing a stupid passive aggressive game for the last 2 months. I can't handle it anymore.
So I've stopped. I am back to being me. quiet, clean, conserving me.

I just hope it isn't too late to save myself from my own guilt. Cause it's eating me up inside and I should be really happy and excited cause I just bought a house. And I am not.

Labels: guilt, housesit, landlord