Monday, March 15, 2010
I feel like it's a secret.
telling Melissa that I stopped taking my meds has made her stop talking to me. I havne't even told her about Rob.
She didn't answer my text yet...
It's all big secret.
part of me wishes I had lied and not told her anything.
Lisa doesn't even know the whole thing. she thinks I am half on my meds...
I need to make a Dr's appt and get into a psychiatrist I doubt that Dr. T is ever coming back. that disappoints me.
Is this a cry for help???
I am hugely overwieght, almost alone and have been for way to long.
Now I am allowing myself to have feelings for someone because he has shown an interest in me. Not exactly the way I wanted my relationship to be. but he does make me smile and laugh out loud about everything.
i wish I would start to feel better soon.
Still shaky and pins and needly - water tastes weird _metallic) not sleeping solidly through the night. Vomitting and really nauseous all the times. would like to be able to brush my teeth without throwing up. it negates the purpose of brushing teeth.
I don't want to go to work today. I hate being at CN downstairs... adn I am always there. it gets terribly annoying and boring.
altough my 80 year od stalker should come visit me today.
She didn't answer my text yet...
It's all big secret.
part of me wishes I had lied and not told her anything.
Lisa doesn't even know the whole thing. she thinks I am half on my meds...
I need to make a Dr's appt and get into a psychiatrist I doubt that Dr. T is ever coming back. that disappoints me.
Is this a cry for help???
I am hugely overwieght, almost alone and have been for way to long.
Now I am allowing myself to have feelings for someone because he has shown an interest in me. Not exactly the way I wanted my relationship to be. but he does make me smile and laugh out loud about everything.
i wish I would start to feel better soon.
Still shaky and pins and needly - water tastes weird _metallic) not sleeping solidly through the night. Vomitting and really nauseous all the times. would like to be able to brush my teeth without throwing up. it negates the purpose of brushing teeth.
I don't want to go to work today. I hate being at CN downstairs... adn I am always there. it gets terribly annoying and boring.
altough my 80 year od stalker should come visit me today.
Dragonfly 3/15/2010 10:44:00 AM