Tuesday, September 17, 2013
Lets Talk About Death, Baby
I shouldn't be making fun, or making light of the situation.
This kids have lost their last grandfather (they had 3), R has lost his step-father and his sister has lost the man she considers her dad.
I haven't lost anyone, not really. I had one dinner with him, over 3 years ago, and that was probably the last time he was jovial, charming and capable of having a conversation.
The man has had multiple strokes and heart attacks over the last 3 years, he was diabetic, and wasn't able to walk. He lost control of his bodily functions too.
They implanted a defibrillator, that's the only reason why he was "alive" for the last 3 years. He should have passed then, but she was to stubborn to let him go.
So he suffered. And suffered. And I have wished and prayed for him to have peace and go. HIs family should not have been subjected to this, his inability to pass left him raging, angry and confused. He was lost and alone in his thoughts, locked inside his head in a body that was failing him, being kept alive by a stupid machine.
She is a monster for allowing it to go on as long as she did. The doctors should have advised against the defibrillator, but they were forced to do what she asked.
B and A should not have has to watch him die for so long. It was her way of torturing them, showing that it is better to watch someone suffer, age, and lose themselves instead of being merciful and letting them go naturally. The man was in his mid to late 80's (Im thinking 87) and there was no reason for him to have had to be here for this long.
I am not glad that he is finally gone. It is a relief and sad at the same time. I am more worried about how the children are going to react, how their behavior is going to be affected by this, and how they are going to take the news.
I feel bad for the man I love, knowing how badly he doesn't want to be part of the drama of his family. Having to deal with the person who brought into this world and the father figure who helped raise him. A sister who has been holding on and protecting her mother from the negatives.
Death is inevitable... the living are the problem.
Dragonfly 9/17/2013 09:39:00 AM
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