Tuesday, September 23, 2014
Change Can be Good, right?!?!!??
I have been fearful about getting forced out of my cashier job for a while now. I have applied for other positions that have been more fitting to someone with a migraine, and finally gotten something.
And I am terrified.
I am now a part-time casino banker.
I no longer have full time status at the casino.
I am at the bottom of the banker seniority list.
And I have to work midnights.
How am I supposed to take my medication? My bedtime medication won't be the same if I am going to bed at 8am... the vitamins and such, yes... but do I take the nerve blocker on a different schedule or the same schedule??? I don't know. I have no idea.
It feels like the casino is bullying me into doing something I shouldn't be doing. There is potential for absolute chaos with this position change.
I want to be strong - say that I am strong enough to keep myself from going crazy again. That I can and will maintain a good sleep cycle and therefore keep my sanity in check. I vow to write, and take my medicaiton. And i know that getting the fuck out of this house will be for the bast - but its still scary. What if I fail??
Should I be getting a lawyer?
This feels wrong.
Dragonfly 9/23/2014 10:26:00 PM