Wednesday, March 11, 2015
is this all their is?
I feel like I am losing myself again.
Lack of sleep, midnight shifts and the stress of this relationship is more than I can bear.
I am emotional, so I cry.
I am frightened, so I shut down.
I am angry, so I over-react.
I am confused, so I ask questions that go unanswered... because I ask them of myself and not the person with the answers.
I have insights, and I can't express them... the words get lost because I am exhausted, emotional, and angry.
I am lost, and I know exactly what's going on.
I just know that everytime I make a major decision, like the one I am facing, I chose the wrong one. My instincts tell me that this is the wrong decision, and its not my call.
Lack of sleep, midnight shifts and the stress of this relationship is more than I can bear.
I am emotional, so I cry.
I am frightened, so I shut down.
I am angry, so I over-react.
I am confused, so I ask questions that go unanswered... because I ask them of myself and not the person with the answers.
I have insights, and I can't express them... the words get lost because I am exhausted, emotional, and angry.
I am lost, and I know exactly what's going on.
I just know that everytime I make a major decision, like the one I am facing, I chose the wrong one. My instincts tell me that this is the wrong decision, and its not my call.
Dragonfly 3/11/2015 12:30:00 PM