Tuesday, November 24, 2015
The One That Got Away
I was talking to J about her reconnecting via FaceBook and text with a guy from her past... the one that she had the ultimate chemistry with... the one that she has never forgotten, that circumstances didn't allow her to be with, whom has now returned but is physically over 4000km away. She has been searching for him (or someone comparable) for almost a decade. And she asked who my "one that got away would be"... and I realized... I don't have one... unless you count R. There was never that guy in high school, nor one on college... not even as an adult. I have never pined for a guy. One friend suggested Mark - I crushed on him at work for a very long time... what she didn't realize is that I sucked it up, got the courage and asked him out... and he turned me down. So crush over. He never got away because he said no.
How interesting that I am not that girl. I don't long for anyone, I don't put myself out there emotionally. I always have strived for the ones who are emotionally unavailable, guys that are gay, or married. Until R... and he pursued me. And I fought him, and he kept trying, kept calling, and messaging, saying all the things every girl wants to hear. He sat on my legs, pinned me down and asked me to let him in... and I did. And I fell hard.
Then excrement hit an air distribution device... and now he is gone. Not my choice, not my decision, not how I pictured my life to be. So he's my one that got away... only difference is that I will never take him back.
Dragonfly 11/24/2015 09:27:00 AM