Thursday, March 16, 2017
Torture... I do it to myself
So HE's been on my mind. He's always on my mind really.
But this time I looked him up on Facebook. He posted pics of a new puppy on my birthday. (Yes 5 days before his birthday, but still)
And there was a comment from a girl commenting "My Minnie" followed by 4 or 5 red hearts.
So he has 2 dogs. The woman who posted that comment has at least 2 kids (from the pics)
Then I went to his YouTube.. And he's posted a pic of a little girl doing Harry Potter tricks.
So now I'm reeling... He's with someone else... Has new step kids. Dogs. Where are his own kids????
And I'm alone.
Trapped in the cycle of not being worthy. Only being good enough to throw away.
I have nothing to offer except a world of isolation and loneliness. No friends. No one I allow to be close.
A part time job, no benefits. A migraine that won't go away. And a house I hate.
My life is torture. And I do it to myself.
Dragonfly 3/16/2017 09:44:00 AM
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