Tuesday, June 19, 2007
I'm not Dead - Just crazy!
I haven't been writing at all.
I don't know why - other than I feel so empty all the time.
But I continue to play with this game of life.
Basically - I'm pissed I've gained so much weight back, and that I have no self-control when it comes to food. It's not like I don't know what or how to eat, I just crave bad food all the time. The medication does that - my self-esteem does the rest.
I learned from the new therapist what my scores on the BECK scale mean - and I am still severely depressed. I have been for so long it isn't even funny.My anxiety has been worse since I started the new medication - and using the CBT techniques doesn't help as I have no idea what sets me off - it just happens.
AND being tired all the time is ridiculous. Simply ridiculous.
I don't know why - other than I feel so empty all the time.
But I continue to play with this game of life.
Basically - I'm pissed I've gained so much weight back, and that I have no self-control when it comes to food. It's not like I don't know what or how to eat, I just crave bad food all the time. The medication does that - my self-esteem does the rest.
I learned from the new therapist what my scores on the BECK scale mean - and I am still severely depressed. I have been for so long it isn't even funny.My anxiety has been worse since I started the new medication - and using the CBT techniques doesn't help as I have no idea what sets me off - it just happens.
AND being tired all the time is ridiculous. Simply ridiculous.
Labels: cbt, depression, medication.
Dragonfly 6/19/2007 08:23:00 PM