Wednesday, November 07, 2007
So Pathetic it's Funny
My doctor told me to avoid contact with people so as to not lose anymore friends. She told me that I am not allowed to make new friends or do anything permanent to my body.
I am still angry and easily aggravated. I hope this medication is the one that actually works.
It's hard to talk to friends when they really don't get it, they won't tell me when I have said something inappropriate, or have hurt them by being too harsh verbally. I know I am an emotional time bomb. There's been no hiding that. And I am not denying any fault... but if people are going to walk around on eggshells around me then how am I to learn that I have done something wrong.
Especially when these people are supposed to be my friends.
Fiends speak to one another, tell the truth - whether it be harsh or hurtful.
Yes, you protect each other, but you don't let hurt simmer underneath until it boils over into one big mess.
But that's just my humble opinion.
I am still angry and easily aggravated. I hope this medication is the one that actually works.
It's hard to talk to friends when they really don't get it, they won't tell me when I have said something inappropriate, or have hurt them by being too harsh verbally. I know I am an emotional time bomb. There's been no hiding that. And I am not denying any fault... but if people are going to walk around on eggshells around me then how am I to learn that I have done something wrong.
Especially when these people are supposed to be my friends.
Fiends speak to one another, tell the truth - whether it be harsh or hurtful.
Yes, you protect each other, but you don't let hurt simmer underneath until it boils over into one big mess.
But that's just my humble opinion.
Labels: bi-polar, friendship, insanity
Dragonfly 11/07/2007 08:08:00 PM